Problem

How is it okay to have Ellen call me a nigger to stimulate me?

What would you say..

..to me thinking I flipped someone off because they wouldn't stop irritating me?  I don't like doing that, but I felt violent and pushed wanting to post it and getting tired of it.  I hope there's some other thought I can resort to.  Next on list.  Check.  So I didn't mean it but am mad @ what I said.

Problem

My aunt is acting violent thinking @ a boy I know from England.  She just said she likes a boy that is not like him, and I know it connects to something that has to do with him but not really, just a coincidence.

Problem

I can't stand up and handle it when someone decides to call me something racially like in secret code, like in the noise they make.  It was for the importance of Ellen.  It started out my dad acted like she disciplines me, but no I didn't do anything.  I already said that's what I think.  Instead, you are meaner than cursing me.

Problem

I don't want people suggesting to me they have better younger parents.

Ellen is not even the 1 who it's happening to.  She doesn't really put up with anything unless she's looking for too much attention.  I mean, her hugging all the people who could make her sick--she must be looking for attention for being nice cuz she doesn't have to intake their tackiness.  I know she does it so that when she gets someone to hug her who she really likes she'll feel better, as well as not guilty.  That's just an example.  She brings many specific messages.  I'm saying she just flips off anything that harms her.  I'm just making a point.

The other reason I was posting I had a problem was because if I just tossed aside the message, someone would tell me it's real.

Sorry @ talking @ Ellen, but if you want to know what I thought here it is.

You know, they keep capping off something about me having an older mom.  That's what this post is @.  I don't like it.  I don't want 1 silly little message that has no meaning haunting me and being reminded to me.

Showing Off

I just got mad about something and was more forceful, didn't wanna be, but it always seems like too much.  I just have to react.  I went crazy and felt like my fingers were dislocating like being split open like this TV show when I watched.  All day, every day, people are trying to arouse me in inappropriate ways, and I can't just sit there.  I have tried more and more to ignore things.  I just don't know.  What do you do when you feel like you're being aroused in a funky sorta unceasing, irregular manner?  In a way that overcomes what you're doing, you can't stand it, can't stand up right, warble, feel aroused..  Is this just gonna get me more insults.  I figured my thing with the addiction to the 4-letter k word kids got it the 90s even if they didn't do it is if someone tries to arouse me.. like smiles @ it or laughs.

I feel kinda bad for my dad and mom.

I was just taking out my trash, and I didn't mind going back but was so surprised.  I almost forgot.  My dad seems upset @ me today, too, but I am not taking this!  I can't seem to blame him.  I think Burton did it.  But I was nice to him a lot etc.  Thought he deserved it.